Weary, yet pursuing

No, I have not fallen off the face of the earth, at least I don't think I have. Life has continued to be a whirlwind of late, and oft times has left my brain numb with no thoughts to write, at least none anyone would be interested in.

I have been going from one thing to the other, trying very hard to organize and make sense of my life with adjusting to an empty home, getting my business in full swing, the anticipation and arrival of 2 grand babies, getting more involved, well, connected at church, running a home, outdoor projects, like redoing a shed roof, dealing with the needs of the car...shall I go on? I feel rather schizophrenic; businesswoman, Nana, church member, homemaker, handyman, mechanic, so many responsibilities, yet only one of me. It has a tendency to overwhelm, leaving me weary, and with the afore mentioned numb brain.

Today, I am weary and have a numb brain, mainly for the joyous reason that my first new granddaughter, Caitlin Ruth was born on Monday. Lack of sleep, and sleeping on less than comfortable beds, is the cause. The heart is full! I decided to come home for a couple days to regroup, take care of monthly bills, business things, mow the yard, try to can some pears, redo a batch of jelly that didn't set up, get some creative projects done for sale, and maybe get a nap.

Please understand, I am not trying to whine concerning my circumstances, or that I am ungrateful in anyway, I am not. I am learning that I have to make friends with all this, for if I don't I will have to find the closest sanitarium. Hmm...but there I wouldn't have to be concerned with any of these things.

'This day', as my mom often says to me. I reckon if the grass doesn't get mowed before baby #2 arrives, if the pears end up in the compost along with the jelly, life will go on, I must choose my battles, find the priorities, do my best. I know other single women must do the same, many struggle as I do, I am not alone in this. I will do what I can do today, finish tomorrow what is left undone, or bag it all when the call comes for baby #2 to arrive. Regardless of the tasks at hand, tea will be the essential, as well as knowing I have a loving, gracious, heavenly Father who knows the way I shall go. That well trodden path, (she takes a big breathe, and feels much better).