Today marks year 2 of Dale's passing. It is hard for me to believe. Some days, on some level, I feel as though I am moving forward and doing well. Other days I feel stuck and swallowed by grief. Oh if only there was a 'How to be a widow' manual, a blueprint, a road map, even a monthly quiz, that would help me determine if I am doing this thing right.
I think of a most beloved son-in-law, who struggles with not having the opportunity to know Dale. I think of grandbabies who won't know their amazing grampa. I know the Lord had this all figured out a very long time ago. He knows why. So, each morning I convince myself to get out of bed and breathe, praying for the grace to start again.
God is sovereign, He is faithful, therefore He is trustworthy. And on that I hang my hat, and my heart.
You will be in my prayers. I don't have any words of wisdom other than I know God will not let you go this alone.
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You are doing well. Dale would be most proud of you. I am proud of you. We all should live one day at a time, get out of bed, breathe and it is His Grace that sustains us, but I know most of us are not doing it alone. I Peter 5:7
ReplyDeleteLove you, Rhonda
Today someone called on the church prayer chain. After giving her request she said "just pray that the Lord knows what He is doing"!
ReplyDeleteImagine asking for prayer with that sort of uncertainty. We KNOW that He DOES know regardless of how it feels or looks. And on that too we hang our hearts.
We all watch in amazement at our Lord's grace in you every step, every day. How much we love you, our dear courageous pilgrim!
You have come so far! I remember when I first read your blog and now see the woman you have become. The grief is still there but you are so much stronger. God has been so faithful to you and He will continue to walk with you through this journey. Hugs!!
ReplyDeleteAmen to all the comments above. I admire you more as time goes by.
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